I have gone through many spiritual practises of transcendental meditation up to five years.I have enjoyed the universal laws of nature, beauty and serenity of spiritualy .but after many inner experiences, I have got distrubed .Now I have lost faith, and my mind is not under my controll.it is losing my sleep and normal routine .My whole family was balanced and calm during my spiritual uplif, but now my whole family is suffering.I can contact a psychaitrist .he can balance my chemicals, but the thought which is deteriorating the situation and worsens more chemical imbalance is within me .Now I,m unable to control this vicious circle .I want to convey my message to babaji .I know satguru canot interfer the laws of nature.but the question is of great suffering, and there is no other cure because I have lost the faith.If our Babaji agrees to bless me, then I might go to get his blessing.I can go for nam but I,m already wrecked.Every man is outward from his childhood.This is born responsiblity of nature to keep him out ward.A child when see outward things, he become happy , take interest and respond by moving his hands and feet to nature.He moves his body parts but His mind is full with thoughts of joy.When we experience thoughts,we forget the whole body ,only remain in thought.A person do his routine work,perform activities but his mind is only experience the thought,emotions and feeling .But he does not remain in the body .He only feels that body part ,which cause pain, but forget immediately when pain subside.our feet are always in subconscious mind .He perform activities ,move his fingers to perform mundane work, but he is outside the body ,only in thoughts.Thought are running during every activity,which keeps us busy while performing work.When a person read books,he go into imaginations of words and forget about the two hands catching the book.it is natural and universally accepted,so people enjoy nature.When these things come in to my conscious mind, they are distrubing health

.Previously, i Forgeted all this due to faith of master, I enjoyed so much to nature.But now, due to the spontenous fixation of my conscious mind to the whole body, It distrub me to perform my work efficiently .I want to forget this all and want to enjoy the world just like normal person.This disrupt my sleep and comfort.I used to remember my university days ,when I wake up early in the morning and enjoy the continouty of positive thoughts.If I learn to remain in thoughts apart from body.I never ever suffer.For thought we have to be out of body.This spontenous fixation of conscious mind during my conservation and work time distrub the ability of me to forget previous things and experience new thoughts.We laping the child but we are in emotions and thought of love but not in arms.it is impossible to forget the body .So how I survive.My family is suffering due to only my thoughts, but I'm unable to balance this.What can be done, I want to address an issue.I m doing transcendental meditation (TM) from 5 years..TM works very acurately and sophisticated for me.It healed and gave me a way both on spiritual and material plane .I was going better .I was Sidhha , yogic flyer.my body lifted upto 4.5feet during flying.My higher self and guides helped me how to heal.Upto 1.7 year, I was disconnected with material world due to my healing process .I might not be distrubed if TM teacher might not intervene.He forced me to follow life deliberately and unaturally.Now I have gone on wrong path, disconnected with nature..Now I want to get suggestion from you what to ?.what is destiny of my soul.My whole soul group even my kids have been converted into negative energy.Life is hell for us.I have opened all layers of mind coincides with universe.Universe also supported me a lot.now I just ask ,my mind is going to focuss on whole body i.e feet ,fingers etc.This disrupt my ability to work and communicate with world.If a real power exist on earth.if this help me to forget the thought of feeling the body and able me to remain in the thoughts of world and profession,then my life can be saved .otherwise I,m unable to do my job even unable to survive.These baseless fixing of my mind to whole body disrupt my mind.Actually every body is constantly in thoughts only .I,m unable to experience thoughts.If babaji bless me to come out of this.I will be life long messenger of babaji.Babaji please save my life.I really want to help the poor people by profession but my mind is not free to think .It has gone into self created hell.plz reply me back very soon